Semi- Out of the Ordinary girl trying to find my way in a world I dont belong in. SOPHMORE COLLEGE STUDENT U ALB <3 Single and not loving it lol
My heart lays on the sleeve of my shirt. Waiting for the chance for it to be picked up and lifted. A yearning for a love so eager, so fresh, and so raw. Unknown territory for me as i have festered it off for 18 years.
It is he, who knows this, slightly. Its like that thought in the back of his head. He can feel my yearning, my want, my excitement. Its to his advantage that my emotions are for him. But to no avail, I second guess how he may feel. Although I’ve been told the heart tells no lie, I know the game. I retired that game long ago in order to feel again. But he, he doesn’t know when the game ends or how to end it.
My only thought is that I’m scared. Scared to let my feelings grow in return for pain and sorrow. He has so much to prove to me for my biggest wall to dissipate, shatter in to nevermore.
Feelings I cant bear to explain that keep growing to an extent that sees no end. And for him to know would be the world.
But the reality is that happy endings dont exist, so for me to break my wall and let him in would only end up in misery for me… </3
~~Tales of a girl scared to let herself fall